I was MIA last week. There were several reasons for it. It started out by forgetting to upload pictures of my meals over a week ago and wondering what I should post; I was having severe case of writers block; my Mom was in town which meant lots of meals out (made OK choices, but it’s still never the same as eating at home); and I made a pretty big life decision.
I’m not going to go into what that decision was today (CLIFF HANGER FOLKS!) but I will tell you that after I finally made the decision, I ate like there was no tomorrow, mainly when no one was looking. I tend to be a food hider. I eat in the car; I eat before the husband gets home from work or before he gets up in the morning on the weekends. I’m a volume eater. I ate fast food a LOT last week. Whether it was Chick-Fil-A for lunch or Starbucks for an afternoon snack or McDonalds for breakfast. It was bad, really, really bad. I know exactly what triggered the week-plus binge. It was thinking that there were things I was going to miss in the future.
I know that the decision that I made is 100% right for me. I have done an incredible amount of research. The decision is something that I’ve thought about for years, put on hold, then thought about some more. I began looking into the actual steps for the decision last fall and decided yet again that the time wasn’t right for me. In the past month, I’ve been thinking more and more about it. Researching even more than I already had. I spoke to a few key people in my life (Bella, my Mom, and of course my husband) and they are all supportive of me. I feel very strong and confident about the decision that I’ve made.
This past week or so of out of control eating lead to seeing a number on the scale this morning that I haven’t seen since 2009. I’m still not at my highest weight, but it’s still a very scary number. I am going to keep it simple this week.
For this week I am doing the following:
- No eating when no one else is around.
- Photograph all of my food.
- Pack my lunch before bed.
- Pack my breakfast everyday.
- No eating in my car.
PS-Thank you Mizfit for calling me out on my lack of posting, I needed a Mizfit kick in the bootie!
I was a closet binger for years because I was ashamed of being seen eating. I learned though the only person I was fooling was myself. No one thought I was naturally that big. I obviously was gaining the weight from something.
I definitely think your list is a great step in the right direction! When I have writer’s block, I browse other blogs, health websites, read new books for inspiration
I sneak food from my Husband too…He’s one of those people that doesn’t get starving, crazy hungry and can’t relate to my need to snack constantly. So I hide it.
I am a food hider too, although it doesn’t happen often anymore, since I live by myself (no one to hide it from).
I think those rules are exactly what you need to make it through this transitory time. The one thing I’d add (because I love rewards) is some sort of gift/reward for yourself if you accomplish those goals. Nothing too elaborate, just a manicure or some new songs, or something.
Oh, and I’m so glad that I could be there for you. I’m excited about your plans!!!
Holy cliff-hanger, girl! Now I’m on the edge of my seat. I’m glad you shared what’s going on with you. And I look forward to hearing your news, whatever it is. In the meantime, I think your guidelines for the week are perfect. Hang in there!