Not yet, not this lady. I have no idea how that is possible. I figured by 5 days pre-op, I’d be well on my way to meltdown central, but I’m not. I’m getting more and more excited each day at what my new life with Sleevie McGavin will bring me. I am sure though, that as soon as I get changed into my hospital gown on the 22nd, and they start the IV’s, I will be a complete and total disaster. Prepare for tears.
I can’t believe that I am only 5 days away from completely altering not only my life, but my internal anatomy. I certainly have fears, but I also am full of hope.
FEARS
- Getting a leak in my new sleeve.
- Getting nauseous from the anesthesia.
- PAIN
- Having a complete meltdown as they roll me into the surgery room, full of snotty, ugly cry tears.
- Having to share a room with someone in recovery that insists on talking incessantly. Note to self-ask surgeon about recovery room.
- This being yet another attempt at weight loss that I won’t be successful at. This just might be my biggest fear.
HOPE
- For the first time in my adult life being a “normal” size.
- Being able to live a long life with my family and friends.
- Being able to be a good role model for me and Hubs future children (or child…let’s start with one)
- Being able to shop in normal stores.
- Being able to be successful FINALLY in the world of weight loss and healthy living.
Even though there are more Fears listed, I internally have way great hold on my Hopes at this point. I am so excited for this journey to actually begin. I know that there are going to be a few rough days/weeks ahead of me, but a bit of pain for a life long path of health seems worth it to me. Ask me this again on Day 3 or Day 4 when I’m kicking myself for doing this, ha!
The liquid diet is going really well. I’ll admit though, that I ate three meals on Sunday BUT before you freak out, I will tell you that I actually ate fewer calories than I do on the 5 shakes and a “lean and green” dinner. My carbs were also right about on par. Today is day 10 of the pre-op diet, and I am down about 8-9 pounds!!
I think this decision has been so long in coming for you, and you are so well-prepared for everything, that you’ll freak out less than you might expect. I’m excited for you and will be hoping for a healthy, speedy recovery!
Thank you so much
I hope that everything goes well for you.
—AK
Thanks!
You will do great even if you have a little freak out moment pre-op. I know that most of your fears won’t come to fruition because you won’t let them!! As SRG said, you’re so prepared. You’ve asked the right questions, found the right answers, researched, read, and you didn’t make any of these decisions lightly.
And I strongly believe that all of your hopes will become realities sooner than you think. You are amazing!!
Thank you for your support, it means so much!!